Yesterday was my birthday. As I sit here now firmly entrenched in the middle of my sixth decade of this particular incarnation, I feel now is a good time to finally get this particular blog up and going. I’ve had the foundation of it sitting idle for weeks now as I continued to unjumble all the voices in my head screaming about the form it should take. But there comes a time when you just gotta sit down and let it take shape.
This isn’t the first blog I’ve started or managed. It is, however, the first blog I’ve decided to make so “public”. The others were all hidden behind ID names and email addresses with very little information attached to them. And that’s a scary concept.
I start this blog because I feel that there are just some things that need said. Words, ideas, personal truths, observations, sometimes even expressions of anger or sadness. Hopefully there will be some bright spots along the way as well. Mainly things in my head that are just screaming to get out.
Many of these things will not be popular. It’s easy to express unpopular ideas when you’re hidden behind an alias. To let the words you say matter more than the person saying them. I can handle the scrutiny of a bunch of strangers. The scrutiny of friends and family is often another matter, however. One of my favorite quotes from Dr. Suess goes, “Be who you are and say what you feel. Because those who matter won’t mind. And those who mind don’t matter.” But sometimes they do matter. And it hurts when you’re ostracized by someone who you love or admire or respect. That’s what makes this endeavor the most scary.
To those friends and family who decide to follow this blog and pay attention to the words I say and ideas that I express, my apologies beforehand if I end up making you feel uncomfortable, embarrassing you, or even outright offending you. Please keep in mind, these are my MY thoughts, MY personal truths, MY observations and conclusions. My main goal is not to make everyone think like me (that’s a scary thought in itself), but hopefully it will make you think. Your beliefs and personal truths WILL be challenged. I know many people just don’t like that. But I will try to keep any arrogance, real or perceived, down to a bare minimum.
I think my main purpose in this endeavor is to hopefully let people who DO think like me know that they are not alone. I know there are millions of voices out there right now. I suppose it’s arrogance in and of itself to think that one more -mine- is going to matter or make one iota of a difference. Maybe that’s one of the things I’m afraid of most of all. Not making a difference. But going day to day, seeing and hearing all that’s going on around me, the desire for the words in my head to get out and be heard is becoming increasingly stronger than my fear of saying them. All I can do is just let them fly and hope the angels blow them toward those who, for whatever reason, need to hear them.